5:02pm 30 August, 2014
Anonymous whispered sensually: How are you hoping or thinking that Dean/Cas interaction will go in s10? It's honestly one of the things i'm most looking forward to.


Me too, nonny, me too.  In fact, I’m so excited about it that I’ve literally had dreams about it, and had to think about it for a second before I realized that no, 10x01 hasn’t actually aired yet and Dean and Cas haven’t had several long, meaningful moments where demon!Dean couldn’t bring himself to kill Cas and where they both then had to negotiate the romantic and sexual tension between the two of them while fighting against their own better natures.  Mmm, that was a good dream…

But in all seriousness, I can’t really make any specific predictions about what their interaction will be like, but I think there are definitely certain themes that are going to be continued through season 10, and will influence the way their relationship progresses.  The biggest theme, of course, will be the ongoing question of who they really are, and what is it that they really want.  We saw during season 8 that the hints of what they both want are there, but hidden under the layers and layers of repression that season 9 showed us.  Dean wants to have a stable home environment that includes a wider circle of friends, especially Cas; Cas wants to be a part of the Winchester’s family, specifically with Dean, and away from the duties and tragedy involved with his heavenly associations.  Both of them were drawn away from what they wanted by the duties they perceived as their sole responsibility, which then led them to become exactly what they didn’t want to become: Dean as a demon, and Cas as an angel who depends on the destruction of other angels in order to survive.

Another theme that we should see addressed is the issue of abandonment, and whether Dean and Cas are capable of having a relationship without abandoning each other (inadvertently or otherwise).  This theme could eventually lead into actual communication about what it is that they both want from each other- for the other to stay with them- or it could just be addressed subtextually as it has been for the past two seasons.

As far as their direct interaction goes, I imagine that there won’t be all that much of it in the first half of the season, or at least in the first few episodes, since it seems that Sam is the one who encounters demon!Dean first.  In terms of Dean’s rehabilitation as a human, however, I think that Cas will actually be integral to his redemption.  After all, Cas has been through a fairly similar experience, and while you could argue that Sam also has the experience to help Dean through the other side of things, it seems that whatever it is that he does in the first half of the season is going to take a lot of the moral wind out of his sails.  Sam is going to have to examine exactly what he’s willing to do for his brother, why he’s willing to go to such extremes, and whether or not he’s capable of breaking free in the way that he so clearly wants to.

Cas, on the other hand, is in a position where, while his morality compass has been tested ferociously lately, he is actually able to say that he’s learned from his mistakes.  His compassion will probably get him a lot farther with Dean (both demonized and otherwise) than Sam’s desperate attempts to find the “real” Dean underneath the demon.  Dean needs to examine his own dependence on Sam and what that dependence is holding him back from, and the best way for him to do that is to hit rock bottom, and find Cas waiting on the other side.

All of that to say that I am super fucking excited for this season to start.

4:15pm 30 August, 2014

Yiqing Yi Couture SS ‘14

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3:29pm 30 August, 2014

Sebastian Stan and Anthony Mackie talk about Chris Evans’s left boob grab at Wizard World Chicago.

2:43pm 30 August, 2014

I’m still just Castiel.

1:56pm 30 August, 2014

like, EVEN if you cut nondisabled SJ types out of the picture — much of the disability ‘discourse’ on this site is run by people whose disabilities do not involve significant language impairments, who are engaging in a flavor of discussion that blatantly excludes people with language deficits (especially receptive language issues), and who are trying to control the way people use language.

to put it more clearly:

  • most of the loud, visible disabled people here do not seem to have trouble with specialized and complex language.
  • they talk about disability in a way that is really hard for me, and other people with significant language problems, to understand.
  • and they are trying to dictate the way people talk, and the words they use, while ignoring how hard this can be for other disabled people.
1:17pm 30 August, 2014



Never ending list of favorite scenes  (8.21) 3/

↳ Hey, uh, little big man?

I love how Dean is trying gently and with a smile, to convince Sam to stay and rest. ‘Hey, uh, little big man' it's: 'you’re still my little brother’, but also ‘You’re a grown up and I see you like that' and those were the exact words Sam needed to hear in order let go of the case for a little while and just rest. 

I actually thought “little big man” was a play on a reference to the Native American Indian who went by that name.  So Dean saying that not only because Sam truly is a little big man, but also because the case they were working on dealt with Native Americas - kind of like his pop culture references, in this case, a historical reference.  (This episode dealt with Metatron, and finding him was related to his recurring signature in the tablet, a symbol for a tribe that was supposed to be protected by the Messenger of God.)

Truly though, Dean was all protective older brother here, and very worried for Sam.  And Sam did need the reassurance - that it was ok to rest, that he wasn’t letting Dean down by not being up to it or being too fragile to go on. 

I think if Sam hadn’t readily agreed and passed out, Dean might have gently forced the issue, because Sam’s deterioration from the trials was worrying him more than we’d see.

This is what wikipedia says about him, and I highlighted some interesting points:

Little Big Man was Crazy Horse’s lieutenant and threatened to kill the Black Hills Commissioners. However, after surrendering along with Crazy Horse, he switched allegiance and was directly involved with Crazy Horse’s death by assisting in pinning his arms. It was said the Little Big Man was crafty, but with considerable ability and presence, while being a recognized trouble maker. Crazy Horse’s last words, uttered to Little Big Man and others after he was bayoneted by a soldier, were "Let me go, my friends. You have got me hurt enough."

My brain is quite mushy from sleep right now, so I don’t know how much sense this is going to make, but I thought that could kinda relate a little to the two of them.

How many times have they unintentionally ended up hurting each other because they weren’t able to let go of the other? Of the toxic parts of their relationship that push them to keep sacrificing themselves and other things to keep clinging to each other? As a very recent example you have Dean letting Gadreel into Sam. 

But there is a difference isn’t there? Their motivations were often love and loyalty to their brother, nothing about switching allegiances. There are a couple of times that might be interpreted that way, like when Sam was so hooked up in demon blood that he chose to go with Ruby and his mistake ended up being the last blow to the lock on Lucifer’s cage; or when Sam didn’t look for Dean and instead settled down with Amelia, which may be read by some and by Dean himself as a betrayal, as leaving him for dead. But those times it’s still debatable whether or not there was a real betrayal, or switch of allegiance.

And now, we get to season ten, where Dean is a demon and we know for a fact he will be chasing Sam with an axe at some point. It can be argued that their codependency has often had their arms pinned down, not allowing them to be free. But now there is your switch of allegiance, with Dean doing more than pinning down Sam’s arms, effectively aiming the bayonette at him.

What do I get from this? They shouldn’t forget their love and loyalty for each other, no “switching allegiances”; but they need to learn to let go of the other as well, because not doing so will only bring more harm, and one or both of them will be likely to end up dead.

And idk, I feel like that wasn’t completely coherent, may come back and rewrite it when I’m feeling more awake.

1:10pm 30 August, 2014

Sarah & Helena + acting siblingy

12:23pm 30 August, 2014

Me: joins tumblr for fun

Me: starts to critically analyze almost every aspect of modern society 

10:50am 30 August, 2014

India replaces the Ice Bucket Challenge with the much more sustainable Rice Bucket Challenge 

After seeing the dramatic results from the Ice Bucket Challenge, Indian journalist Manju Latha Kalanidhi was compelled to start something similar, but with an Indian slant. “I felt like doing something more locally tangible. Rice is a staple here,” Kalanidhi told CNN. “We eat it every day, we can store it for months. Why not donate rice to someone who is hungry?”

It’s fairly simpleFollow @micdotcom

10:04am 30 August, 2014


This gives me life

How music changed from 2000-2013. 

i feel so fucking old right now…

Anyone else notice how more songs were in a minor key at the beginning of the video?

9:17am 30 August, 2014


Dean pays for their meal and then sits down next to Cas behind one of the food carts. He scratches a patch of dirt on his arm and yawns; he feels gross. 

"I got us a burrito from the Mexican place," he tells Cas. "It isn’t all that big, but we can split it three ways again and give most of it to Sammy." 

Cas nods. He lifts his hands and signs out his normal question. Do we have money for his breakfast tomorrow? 

"I think we’ve got enough for a weeks worth if we only shop at the dollar store," Dean says.

That’s on top of the money we’re putting away for the bus to Bobby’s?

Dean frowns. He forgot that they were saving for that. Again.

"No. That’s including."

Cas sighs and then clicks his tongue. Dean slumbs back against the food cart and turns to watch Sam chase the pigeons in the parking lot. The kid is as carefree as a seven year old can be, like he doesn’t even know that he’s homeless and constantly on the brink of starving. 

"When did our lives get so fucked up, Cas?" Dean is so tired. He just wants it all to be over so he can go back to being a normal teenager again. 

Cas leans over and kisses Dean’s shoulder. We only need $100 more to get the tickets, he says. 

He kisses Cas’ forehead and looks back to Sam. He knows how to get the money they need by tomorrow, he’s just gotta figure out he’s going to explain away the bruises Alistair will definitely leave on him. 

8:31am 30 August, 2014

Aug. 27 1:35 pm

7:44am 30 August, 2014

there are some figures so shrouded in myth that historians cannot conclusively say they did or did not exist and it is that ideal that i aspire to